Woah - I haven't posted for over a week now. I had meant to write on Monday after the children went back to school but I had a bit of a ........hmm what shall we call it now? A bit of a major upset at school (great timing on your first day back!). The details don't really matter - suffice to say that I was criticised by a parent for the way I ran my lesson - and I took it badly. My, did I take it badly! I was so upset and I discovered that my self confidence is just barely held together with the finest of threads. I was upset for most of this week and spent ages going over everything in my head. I didn't do much else - I just wallowed. I didn't agree with everything that was said to me but I realised that there were some things that could be improved. More than anything though I was shocked at how much it knocked me. I started to wonder if I was desperately self absorbed or very vulnerable.
In the end I decided that I could either learn from the experience or just keep being a victim and I finally felt able to move on yesterday. That's why I just couldn't post anything till now. I couldn't pretend everything was hunky dory and I didn't want to go on and on about it here. Gosh there was a time (pre-children) when I could take these things in my stride - what the heck's become of me? Was I harder then?
Anyway, as I said it's time to move on and to tell you what we've been up to instead.
Look what I knit yesterday - a girl bear:
I don't know if I mentioned it before but Wylie gave Amber a book called 'Knitting for Peace' this summer. Well, Amber was very taken by some of the projects in this book and particularly the Mother Bear Project. She decided to get some girls together to knit a few bears at school. Well, inspired by her, the other hand work teacher and I decided that we'd get a couple of our classes to knit bears too and we decided to have a cake sale today to raise some money for the wool. Here's a copy of the letter that Amber wrote to the everyone in the school:
During the holiday I was given a book called 'Knitting for Peace - Make the World a Better Place, One Stitch At a Time'. It has stories about people that knit things like hats for premature babies; shawls for cancer patients; jumpers for orphans; blankets for the old and infirm and teddy bears for orphans in Africa.
Everything in this book really touched me but especially the teddy bears. Some of these traumatised children are so poor that they use broken glass bottles as dolls so these bears really mean a lot to them. One of the stories in the book was about a small girl in Zambia who was ostracized at school for having AIDS. She told her teacher that her teddy bear was the only thing in the world that loved her. It was buried with her when she died.
And so when I read this I wanted to do something about it and to get some other people involved. My Mum and I talked about it and she and ( ) decided that it could be a handwork project for classes 4 - 7 this term. It would be great if we could send off at least 50 bears.
But before we start we need to raise money for the wool, stuffing and postage that is needed so we thought we could do that by having a cake sale on Friday.............etc etc.
Amber, Class 8
Isn't it lovely? A number of parents came up to her today and said they'd been really touched by her letter. Agggh, I'm so proud of her.
Well, we've had the cake sale and we raised £110. We're going to get our wool from Get Knitted who are offering us a good discount and I'm hoping to get started in a week or so. Do click on that link above for the Mother Bear Project to see what it's all about. I take my hat off to this lady and infact to all the ladies in the book (Knitting for Peace) who do such amazing things for others. Infact, my own friend Wylie knits shawls, together with some ladies from her church, which is part of a project mentioned in the book. It's called the Shawl Ministry and you can click on the link to find out more. Thanks Wylie for inspiring us so much AND for starting something just by leaving that book by Amber's bedside when we came to stay.
So, first week at school has gone by. The children, well Amber especially has loads of homework now but I did get them to quickly make these the other day for our young friend who is going off to Uni next week. They're all made from dyed blanket. The bright pink is Dylon and the other two are plant dyed:
The builders are still here and the porch has definitely come on:
we weren't happy with the levels in the garden and made a drastic decision to cut down a tree as it was in the way basically. It's made quite a difference to the view now and you can see that house more clearly.
but it does mean that the lower level can be wider which is good and we'll plant another Rowan tree on the edge of the orchard to replace this one.
Other than that my parents are off to India on Thursday so we're popping there tomorrow to say bye but that's after we've been to the open day at the Black Country Museum.
I should just say sorry to my dear friends who've all be waiting for replies from me - Jodi, Wylie, Kristin, Sarah, Val, Tracy. Sorry ladies. I'm back on form now and promise to write in the next day or so.
PS I'm not fishing for sympathy or asking you to side with me this was more off a - 'look what fourteen years at home has done for my self confidence' post. If you do leave a comment please refer to that point. This post may well be read by people in my school community and I do not want to start anything!